God is the initiator. we are the responders in reality to me

What are we? Responders or Initiators, or both

What is a responder?



v. re·spond·ed, re·spond·ing, re·sponds


1. To make a reply; answer: respond to an email.

2. To act in return or in answer: firefighters responding to a call. See Synonyms at answer.

3. To react to a stimulus or to a treatment, especially in a favorable way: tumors that responded to radiation

What is an initiator?

[verb ih-nish-ee-eyt; adjective, noun ih-nish-ee-it, -eyt]

SynonymsExamplesWord Origin

See more synonyms for initiate on Thesaurus.com

verb (used with object), in·i·ti·at·ed, in·i·ti·at·ing.

to begin, set going, or originate: to initiate major social reforms.

to introduce into the knowledge of some art or subject.

to admit or accept with formal rites into an organization or group, secret knowledge, adult society, etc.

So we as people do initiate things do we not? We think of ideas and bring them to fruition, look at all the progress in today’s society.


So we have those that initiate and those who respond to those that initiate, EX: the Cell Phone today, created by mankind, even doing it wireless.


Big Business in creating, is there not?

Without responders, there would be no business would there, so the two go hand in hand. As we have initiators and responders, we have the same in good and or bad. In electricity, we have a positive and a negative, with out both there Is no light, unless

one goes back to the old ways electricity was used. It was three phase wiring, there were three Hot Leads to a circle, and each at 120 degrees apart, would made up 360 degrees as a whole circle. Which when each supplied electricity the circle would spin.

This is how electricity was used, until man found out how to make capacitors to cause the circle, (EG motors and such to run by its power).

So did man create electricity? Or does man just find it, here on earth and use it? So in retrospect, something, here on earth here had to be created first for this energy to be found and used, even manipulated to be used as man thinks to use it. Trial and Error.

Who was it that invented the light bulb? Was it Abraham, Lincoln? No Thomas Edison. How many errors in trying to get that bulb to give light? A lot, who invented the transportation, man did again in trial and error, all known today as Entrepreneur’s.

And we the people respond to these Entrepreneur’s, as long as it works for us. So man is a God, he thinks, he produces we respond and use to get along and live here do we not? So we know this truth, no matter what man has come up with or comes up with,

he only uses resources here on earth to make, manipulate and create out of stuff here already. Everything we see today is made out of the resources of this earth we are on and in a part of it, are we not? So who or what created this Earth and Universe, we

delve into, to find this out as man wants to know. All of us, no matter what anyone picks, chooses and or believes, this earth and the surroundings is here, however it got here it is here, and we as men use it to live here for as long as we can, do we not?

So maybe we now can take a look at Acts in the Bible left us, however interpreted by man it is what it is. Written to us to figure out things, like we all die and why? Not ever wanting to die, I see this from with inside me, maybe you too, You decide, I know

I have, even though all have died, I know most of my family has, I got two siblings left out of five plus mom and dad are dead also, not here in flesh and blood any longer. The Acts part I am talking about is when the Apostle Paul went to a town, that had

Acts 17:23 for as I was out walking I saw your many altars, and one of them had this inscription on it—‘To the Unknown God.’ You have been worshiping him without knowing who he is, and now I wish to tell you about him. If anyone decides to read this,

about what is said has taken place here. Read it please to see, what I am talking about how we as people do not want to die, so this town had flags, many of them wanting to be saved. Acts 17:22 So Paul, standing before

them at the Mars Hill forum, addressed them as follows:

“Men of Athens, I notice that you are very religious, 23 for as I was out walking I saw your many altars, and one of them had this inscription on it—‘To the Unknown God.’ You have been worshiping him without knowing who he is, and now I wish to tell you

about him. That is what Paul said at Mars hill then, according to what is written to us in it. About a Loving God to us all to turn to in belief, God has each and every one’s best interest at heart. (Jeremiah 29:11)

So I see me and many others, wanting peace and serenity here on earth. Some even sell their birth rites for that here on earth, not caring about harming others or not. includes themselves. So to get ahead, others get stepped on, for this gain for themselves and

those they love. I am looking at this happening to us all, to make it here on earth, being each in some kind of tragedy or many tragedies, however one responds to this makes one better or worse, even though might look good to others, having stuff here on

earth. This to me comes down to being truly loved or not whether in adversities or not. So I ask me, what am I doing, I know I need to have, I have to have. So how to go about to have, is what I see is key to being a person on earth that either cares for all or

just those I know and love along with those I know and hate. So here we are people, either being a responder or an initiator playing as being God or not. Now we know all the resources here on earth man uses and does not create, do we not? Where did, do

these resources come from? Was it a big bang and all here to use and us to figure it all out , being able to think good and or bad thoughts to produce things or not? Usually in thought what we do is good, when it might not be? If was, and nothing else,and there

being no life after death then there is no life after death is there or is there? And if there is no life after death, what is the use of living here on earth. What purpose? All is futile! ? You can gain much stuff here on earth, and when die leave it to whomever, as

we all know man each one leaves all his gains and losses behind when he dies does man not do this? So tell me if nothing after this life in death, why do we live first? Why are we even born? I think there has to be a purpose, do you not? For if I am to just die

and be dead, in that is there any life? So might as well party now, for tomorrow I might die, you also. So that makes me free to do whatever I want to do, does it not you too? So tell me, being free now to do as you decide, is it good for you, me or anyone else

to harm another here on earth, that got here the same way as you? Was it not by man and woman or maybe insemination, however, you came here through flesh right? Do I, you and all have the same right to be here on earth, being born here not of your

own free will? And when you have or had Children, was it any of their free will to be born here too? To sum this up, I see this, there has to be something more to this earth we are first born on, in from man and woman, that just to live and die one day later

whether here a while or not. I say this because the first death I experienced, was me dying, at age 12. Then my Sister’s death, she was 18, died on an overdose of drugs. Then my Dad, when I was 17, then my Brother John. when I was 21 years of age. Then my

mother in 2002, however and whatever way any death happens, I want to hope their is life after this, anyone else have these type of tragedies? There is a creator of all, to me he is God, as revealed to us by Son, Jesus the Christ for us to get new life given us

in his risen life for us to be given this free of charge, just turn to him in belief and stand in this to see, I am telling you all it is worth it, To believe which is what Faith is. Now if there is or there is not, either way, what good does it do to me or you and or anyone

else to think bad thoughts of whatever has troubled us or troubles us ? I know this at age 62 now, no worries have ever helped me, not once, all they ever did was make me angry, frustrated and wanting to not have them, anyone else see this too, now?

Or has anyone reading this ever seen worry help them? I know this truth, I thought it had or does in past, why? Because I would become in thought(s) an initiator, playing God over my tragedies, and do things to get better? Like how to get over my Sister’s

death, how to get over abuse I have gone through? And you know what I found? Having a conscience of these bad happenings, never let me move forward in first accepting what is, is? Now once I saw to just accept what I have no control over as death,

I have no control over. I want to have that and no one die ever. Yet how to perform and or have that I have not. So I see worry does not do me or anyone any good, do you? So how not to worry, as like how not to initiate and play God, or how to be just a

responder to the God of Heaven and earth and more beyond? Anyone have the answer to that? I have beaten me up, in trying to find this out, so much I have died and been revived too many times now. I see to accept what is as is, whether I do good or bad,

I see I can not change me, let alone anyone else. Yet I try to help others with their problems in suggestions to them. As I now see since I can’t fix me in trying and worrying, how can I fix others, even though want to in care for them too. So what is amiss in

us each one that does care one for the other? Could it be, that when we are hearing another, we do not listen to them, whether in praise or hurt. What do I mean one might ask?

Well the last time you needed to vent and you did that, wanting too at least, And in the middle of it as you were talking, did the other(s) listening interrupt you? When that happened, did you get it out, whatever it was you were trying to get out?

When got interrupted before spewing all out what you needed to get out, was that not like that other picked up your vomit and threw it back in your face, trying to tell you how to fix it. Did, does that help? Sometimes it might seem as so, yet garbage here on

earth in thought still happens does it not? Now if you had a circle of people that just listened to you vent, and no one interrupted during your vent, would you then have gotten out, whatever was needed to be gotten out? Whether good or bad? How as people

can we now start doing this? Can we start to see to just listen until the other one is done and not interrupt them? Wait until this other says they are done, and will take feedback from you that listened? Now what to say to that other, that one just listened to?

Do we try to fix them? By our own thoughts of what we heard them say? For do I, or we not make up in our own mindsets, what we hear others say? Do we not tell them what we hear by our own makeup of the words we heard, in whatever definition we

have the word(s) we heard? Which might not as many times is not the same definition as the one that just spoke them. So in responding to them are we really responding to them in their words we heard or our own made up definitions of those words you


Does that help? the other or you in thinking you just helped that other get over their concerns? I for me, I found out this:

A dear friend, I got to know and hear, a man of care for all, listened, started a group of us doing this listening, by the name of Chris Lambert, who had has been through the Cuisinart, and made a video called Good bye Vietnam on You tube. Wow! is all I can say.

Now in being heard once a week for over two years, with at least three others in the group, I have gotten to vent and see me as if in a mirror. Others when I was done would say back to me just the words they heard me say, no interpreting them, just the

words. that resonated with me, that brought me to hear from inside me truth over error in accepting things now as they are in present time. Not in future thought(s) of what if, should have, or could have, as those are disappearing now. For what good is that

to be in future thoughts of things I wan to be? Especially if these do not happen and I get dependent on them to happen? What is my response when if it does not happen as I thought would or should? See my thought(s) are the initiator, my response is being

whatever thought(s) that have initiated me into thinking it better come true. And so many times in past, that has been the case for me and depression came in over these things I thought should be and did not happen as thought to happen. You too, I do not

know, but I do know how these stinking thinking thoughts, got me under its control to do what I would not do normally. And I hated that, in harming others over my troubles I was so focused on and can be again in an instant, especially when ever I think I

got it together, I find out I do not. So here I am and maybe you too, I do not know. Yet I do know this, I today am in training, got training wheels on to teach this mind of mine that does not mind to stay in this present second of time. To stand in that, not in the

past not in the future that is not here yet. That I find is not easy to do, yet to me I see it is worth it, to do this continually for peace of mind that passes all understanding. To be able to now use past and maybe future as past is gone, I now can learn from it

and not be mad over it. I can look at the possibilities of future and not be convinced that is what will be? For I can not predict future stuff, I can ask and stand in might and see might not get. Being like a cat hanging on a tree limb, and saying oh God if I can

learn from all mistakes made, what a wonderful future I will have then


Thank you I trust you Father thanks to Jesus risen for us all to hear and see and be new in your kind of love for all.

Homwardbound I am



just learning as I go forward into future, not past, standing in the present second, and seeing how fast the future that just came in goes out again, future goes out as past as fast as it comes in. Being trained from the creator of this universe I think is God,

The Father of the risen Son for us to get new life in his love and mercy given us by Son’s one time death for us all for reconciliation as if not one of us has ever sinned, this I see is done by God Father through Son for us all to be given new life to be led in

by him, having noting but what is in the long run good for us. First Forgiven everyone in his one time shed blood it is done John 19:30 states this. Then Hebrews 9:14-17 tells me of his will for us, that not one can get until they see what his one time death did,

we are all reconciled to Father, not any other, as forgiven as said in Col. 1:21-23 verse 22 gets me the most in thought how can that be, for us, except by his Love that is not fathomable as far as the East is from the west I see I can not stop how far that is.

When I started there in me believing I am forgiven whether I sin again or not again, that is when new life began. My mentor God sent then to me was Bob George of people to people ministries. As I heard and am learning it is truth, we all are forgiven in his

one time death, everyone, even if sin again he/she remains to us we are still forgiven from Father in of Son for us to turn from death to life as the gift, no earning it. And just trust, learn to quit trying to figure it out, where I found out is doubt, even as Eve

when she looked at the tree, it became appetizing to find out. So she ate and Adam who was there when she did this saw her not die, right away, and so in doubt he ate as well. Doubt and doing what he thought in doubt is what killed them. Doubt entered

and he died. Yet did not right away, for God Father (not known as Father then), had mercy on them and has had this on us all, whether see this or not, revealed now in risen Son for us to be new in given to us from Father once one decides to stand in beleif

and not works. Now this be what I see after that, if God himself were or is a tyrant as many I see have thought this, I had wondered this too. He would not have had mercy on them (Adam and Eve then), or clothed them, let them live to see they are not God,

yet are made in the image only as God, but not! Could God have not just killed them and started all over again? Why did he not? Because I see God does just love us all, IMHO. So see to be free and not harm others, by ever taking away their free will

Watch the Movie “ Bruce Almighty” with Morgan Freeman and Jim Carey. Where Freeman playing God to Bruce says you can do whatever you want, except take away free will from any other. See that is love to us all to hear and obey in this love for all,

to let each be as they choose to be, as I told you about in a listening group, where I have learned much deeper than ever though could, God used another person in their walk for me top hear, That be Chris Lambert.

Start your own listening group today and do as I talked of there, for being heard and not interrupted has changed me, I see this is exactly what God Father of in risen Son does for us, so stop being afraid and tell truth. I am not well enough to survive

I need Father in spirit and truth of risen Son for us all to get peace of mind being in troubles that do not quit here on earth.

Amazing grace this is to me from Chris Lambert who shared too. Was not the teacher, yet was and held nothing back as if better than us each one.


Thank you Chris my mentor in this, blessings to you in belief you have too.


Homwardbound I am thanking Father and Son for all, this allowing me to be free and screw up to learn truth over errors I have been through

I see to be just a responder to the initiator of all, God Father of risen Son, Jesus the Christ for us to turn to in belief to see and not give up, then one will see if does not give up. This I now know in not giving up.

Past onto all that might hear too, as God knows and I trust in to reveal to it to all that turn to him in belief too, not giving up when going through troubles too.





Truth being what I think we all want so seek


Do we then make void the law through faith? God forbid, rather we establish the law. It has always been by faith from day one in the garden. It was the serpent that brought doubt to Eve, while Adam was probably right there. Regardless of who ate first or second, doubt was created and they both ate. See, if they would have trusted God in what he said to them that they would surely die if they ate of that one tree only, then who knows the outcome. Yet the outcome is the outcome, it is what it is! So now we the people are left with the outcome, we are tossed to and fro, to this doctrine then that doctrine, separating ourselves from other groups, calling us right the others wrong, and the doubt that was caused in Adam and Eve remains to this day in our flesh that is. If you have been born again, and Brother, Sister Born again starts the day you first believed and asked Christ in your heart Ephesians 1:13 you were then sealed with the Holy Ghost for eternity. Now ask for the Holy Ghost to reveal Father to you, and it shall be done, the whole purpose of Jesus was to fill the old covenant and prophets, Matthew 5:17 in order to get you to his Father through the Holy Ghost. And this was filled John 19:30 states it is finished. Then he after the resurrection was here for forty days explaining the new covenant to the disciples. Then as he was ascending to heaven and the disciples did not want him to go. He told them if he did not he could send the Holy Ghost to them to seal them in the new covenant. Go and wait and pray for the Holy Ghost to come, they did and what a mighty rush this was, better than any drug or drugs here on earth, and completely to the max healthier than anyone knows except those that received, and still receivable today through faith. Then receive the new covenant Hebrews 9:16, then read on about this amazing new covenant.

Then see now what Paul meant when he said do we make void the law through Faith? No we rather establish the law through faith and God does the law through you the believer, and you are in agreement for God through the Holy Ghost to do this through you. This is the new way and there is no flesh in the way here, so there is no room for proudness or boastfulness. You see Brethren God does love you. This new way new covenant, brings you to work with joy (Jesus over You) so now you can whistle as you go through the fires on this earth, for you shall not be burned unless you give into doubt that is so rampant here on earth, causing all deformities here and now and has been. I conclude it is by doubt in God from day one at the garden, and it has been doubt ever since. Jesus confirmed what I say in Matthew 18 where the woman through her faith when she touched Jesus’s garment she was healed, and Jesus said it was her Faith, this woman had no doubt, and was instantly healed, WOW!

I tell you brother, sister, read the word, seek God while reading, and ask for the meaning as you read. God knows your heart, and if you want to know God, God will reveal himself, through His Son Jesus Christ.

Go now, Brother, Sister read, read and read again. Uphold the law for it is good, perfect and correct for you. It is just that no flesh can perform the law: as in the only two both are filled with LOVE GODS’ performing this in and through you, when one asks for this God turns your stress into resting in him. I call it GODQUILL so you can rest medicine, better than Nyquil. Love you all in Christ

Sincerely Yours whoever reads this? I know you’ll get it.

What is done?


What Jesus did before the crucifixion?

When Jesus walked the earth, spoke as no other man ever did. He healed all the ones his Father told him to. He did nothing and or said nothing w/o the Fathers’ leading through the Holy Spirit.

Now imagine or maybe this has happened to you. You get the message that someone you love is sick. How do we as people react to this? We get up and go right away in a hurry to see what we can do, but Jesus said to the servant that gave the message to him that this sickness was not unto death, but was for the glory of God (his Father) that he might be (the son that is) glorified through this. And Jesus did not get up right away and go unto Lazarus; he waited two days before going to Lazarus. Then he tells the disciples that their friend, Jesus’s friend now sleeps, and Jesus is on his way there to awaken him. The disciples do not understand, so Jesus tells them Lazarus is dead. He goes there and raises the dead even after 4 days had passed since his death. John 11

Notice Jesus did not worry, get all upset, stayed calm, was rest assured, and knew what his Father had told him through the Holy Ghost. All others worried, confused, distracted, mad, and angry; throwing tizzy fits and so on, because they are saying to Jesus you are too late he is dead.

Sound typical of all our belief systems, we say we belief, yet we doubt continuously. Notice! The same Holy Spirit lives in you, as was in Jesus, through your belief, and I think we I desire to hear the Spirit, and listen and do as you know you are led. If we do this I think there would be a lot less, worry, fear, anger, and eventually this perfect love would cast out all fear. One would over time walk more and more in the Holy Spirit unto perfection, even though from God’s point of view you are already perfect because of his Son Jesus Christ, the day you believed and kept seeking unto walking in the Spirit where there is no offense to the law.

PRACTICE MAKES HABIT, HABIT MAKES CHARACTERISTIC, AND CHARACTERISTIC MAKES TRAIT. So starting the practice of dying to self-daily and coming alive to God daily eventually becomes a practice. Then while in the practice long enough eventually this becomes a characteristic of you walking in the Holy Spirit of God himself, and while this continues it eventually becomes you, a trait, yet it is not you it is God through you. You no longer live, but God does through you.

Now on the opposite side you had an old trait that holds on for years. Your new practice starts to tear down your old trait. So as you grow slower than you would like and most usually give up before ever seeing the light at the far end of the tunnel. I am telling you the light is there and God is waiting for you to see through, just keep going for God is the A to The Z, and we the children are caught somewhere between the B and the Y. So I tell you Brothers and Sisters keep on moving till you get to the Z. God is real and will catch you in the palm of his hand. Just keep seeking and you will eventually get through all the way to the Z. This is what Martin Luther expressed. He saw the light and was conveying it to the world. But the thief came and stole, destroyed by killing him, yet he lives forever just not in this dimension. But in Christ’s he does forever.

Sincerely yours, in Christ

how thought(s) take hold of us



The heavens opened up God hones thought.


Thought was given to Adam and Eve on the day they ate from that tree of knowledge. They became aware of good and evil, and they knew that they were going to die for they knew God does not lie. So they hid themselves and covered themselves with fig leaves, hiding from nakedness and God.


I wonder since before the tree of knowledge, I am thinking they did not have discernment. Let me explain, they did not know right from wrong. They only knew what God had told them. Yet The Serpent deceived them into eating from this tree of knowledge saying you will know all and be equal with God so go ahead eat. So in not knowing, they were taken away, talked into and did what another said in place of God almighty, deceived into becoming God themselves, deceived into being the creator themselves or a creator. No matter their focus is not on knowing God, their focus is on survival, at any cost, even killing their neighbor.


The same thing today is going on, and it is all through thought. Whatever thought (s) one accepts into their lives will create their actions or reactions to any given moment And the thought (s) are usually surrounded around survival.


Survival is the root thought of every Human soul on this earth today. Everyone from this root thought whether aware of it or not is the persons controlling factor in their actions and reactions.


Jesus states: those that wish to save their lives shall lose it; and those that will lose their lives shall save it. Unless the seed falls into the ground and dies, there shall not be life. Be born again of the spirit. Some of us want to die, because of the trauma that has occurred in our lives, others just sweep up the mess and just move on hoping for better outcomes based on what they do or do not do. The ones that have had the trauma try to change and are convinced that somehow they must deserve the bad things happening in life. Even if through them doing good now, and bad things stop happening, this brings one to belief that this is the way to survival. So they set out to do good works for their thought pattern has directed their action(s). Now this could go in many different directions with many different reactions. The thought process of each and every Human is the controller of the person(s) action or reaction. Now all this s the occurrences from thought In one’s mind.


So let us take a closer look at thought(s). Where do thoughts come from? Do we as humans have a thought center in our minds? Are thoughts physical? Does anyone see the thoughts that come in and go out? Is there a Spiritual realm? We see the physical realm. I conclude there is a Spiritual realm, and there are malevolent Spirits there injecting thoughts into all the human race, and thus the ones that accept them do them as told accepted without really knowing it, even though there are those that do know to who and what they are listening to, and do them causing others to do the same. Many misleading Spirits controlling others and thus deceiving others into survival of the fittest, killing, stealing and destroying anyone in their way for they are convinced they are right and everyone else is wrong through the demonic energies they have accepted as right in their own thoughts, thus thinking these thoughts are from God.


All thoughts from the powers of the air are demonic, and after only one thing your death and death of others. God does not interject thoughts from without. God does not interject thoughts. God does not deceive.


There is no thought center in the brain. Check it out on the internet. They have found the eyes center there, hearing, feeling, taste, touch, etc.  So again from where do thoughts come from?


While Jesus was on the earth in bodily form he said take NO THOUGHT of tomorrow. Wow! Take no thought, you see he reassured you and me that God the Father loves you completely, but we are rushing all over the place trying to get this done or that done, taking thought in what we are doing or not doing thinking we are going to get blessed or already are blessed because of what we have accomplished, gained, worked for, etc. Truly as Jesus said do not do your good deeds before men, looking for their blessings for truly that will be the only blessing when you are working for it. It is a reward that through your success, being praised by men for your success is truly the payment is made in full. But if it is by faith and faith in God the savior, and one is not looking for reward, God will openly reward you the believer. So take no thought of today either. Take no thought and walk in faith seeing that when one takes thought of, whether good or bad it is out of step, and it is what derailed Adam and Eve in the beginning. Man has been taking thought ever since; a few have seen past this like Abraham. Who took no thought and trusted God after he learned to trust God in Faith (belief) It took like 29 years before he had the promised child of God and at an old age. But he had the child and was even willing to sacrifice the child. Abraham gave all to God and knew if he did sacrifice the child, God would raise him back to life. Faith does know not thinking about it. The thought is the derailleur in every human being, planted in Adam and Eve and has been inherited in and unto all offspring until one is born again and that is when one changes their mind from unbelief to belief in the living Savior Jesus Christ, thus they are born again and the new work of faith is installed through the Holy Ghost that came to live in you the day you first believed. Take no thought just know that God loves you receive this and you will do the new life of love without even knowing it for it is no longer you doing it  is God through you


Love you all Christ Jesus sincerely yours

Debating, Discussing, many a time ends up in arguing

With the want and desires of wanting to be accepted, how do we end up, in fights, arguments over the things we are trying to tell others?

Could it be we ourselves, wanting to be heard first? And if we are not, at least think we are not, we argue to each other, ending up not getting anywhere? This has happened to me, many times x many!  How is it, when another is speaking, I tend to interrupt that person’s speech and thoughts of what that person is trying to convey to me?

I am beginning to see how this be! I make up stuff in my own mindset, in the words I hear, and then see them as that is what that other is saying. Then when seeing this in my mindset of me interpreting these words I hear, I somewhere somehow, get triggered in being upset over my interpretation of the words I hear, that are not good to me. So I then make up what I think or thought I heard in my own interpretations, making this doctrine and so I go off or agree with that other one speaking.

Now if I do not like what I hear, then I tend to immediately interrupt that one speaking. Then that one speaking being interrupted, is now disturbed over this too. For that person was not able to finish his thoughts completely. So by this interruption, no one is heard! And problems with fire fly off of us.

All this by making up thoughts in my own mind over what I hear that other one saying, and could I be wrong? Yes, why, how, by not letting that person finish, and waiting for them or him/her to finish. How many times listening to others in their venting a problem or problems, do I interrupt them? What a bad habit I see this is, and now see to not interrupt, and see what a bad habit I have in doing that, with the excuse of, I just want to help the other. Does that really help the other? has it ever helped you, when another did this to you?

I never knew that as true to me, prior to joining a listening group, where one major rule is to not interrupt the person speaking, wait until the one speaking says they are finished and will take feedback to them from others that heard him/her. Now what I learned from this at first, is how mad I was, in anger over things that happened to me. I got the chance to vent it without being interrupted, for the first time ever, no one interrupted. I got to for the first time get it out, completely, and when I heard what others heard after I was done. All they were allowed to do was repeat back to me the words I said, no trying to fix me in any interpretation’s of me, in what I revealed as what was harming me.

And each of us in that group, got to do the same. I do not know exactly how it might have helped the others, yet I do know how deep this has helped me. And to this day after moving away, has continued to stand in the help I needed to get better in acceptance of what has happened to me. This floors me, along with knowing now, I am and remain forgiven from God Father of the entire world in his one and only Son that is risen for us to be also. Not by trying to figure this out. just by relying on this as being true. For to me it is true, as I read scriptures such as Ephesians 1:6,7,13, 1 John 2:1-2, 12, Romans 5:1-10, Col. 1:21-23, Phil 1:6, Phil 3:1-20, 2Cor 12:7-10, Rev. 3:8. And see how I have been caught up in stuff, that has happened to me in adversities, being in thought(s) over it, that never helped me, But to get me upset, and angry, over thought(s) of I should have, I could have or and now better do or else attitude.

Being ion thought(s) to make me better, has sometimes seem to have helped, whenever I thought I was doing better, I was not, I was getting proud over it, when I thought I was doing right. How absurd to me this is now, for it put me in charge and made me as if better than others. Not! then whenever being thought to not, and I did what I did not want to do, guilt became my God. when pride entered I became God.

How can that be, when the Bible tells me that God Father took away all sin in his Son at Son’s death for me and the whole world, as said in John 19:30, Matthew 5:17

In John there it says it is finished, I asked what is finished? I heard the Law, I still confused, seeing the law and or sin still goes on.  this be when Matthew 5:17 entered and 5:18, how the Law still is not finished yet is in Son stating what he came here to earth in flesh and blood to do was take away son once and for all. But I see it all around me, in me and how?

Then I saw in my Father’s sight only is this done, not in this world or my own flesh and blood first born nature. Jesus’s willing death was for all not a few or many, for all to turn to God in belief he does just love us. To start right there from scratch, in belief he has cone to reconciled us all first as forgiven from him as we see others do not do this, not as he has done for us by Son in Son’s one-time death for us all to turn to him in belief that does not quit, Might want to many a times over and over again as I see we all go through troubles here on earth. So I see that book of Job, where God says Job will not deny him, and satan says take away that hedge you got around him in protecting him, and see he will deny you.

God say not! go ahead, you will see, he will not deny me. see the setup for the Christ to come from that scenario we read of Job? Christ went even further than Job, unto death willingly to now in his being risen from the dead, to give you, you, you and me and all those that turn to him in belief of new life to lead them in love and mercy as have been given them from Son’s one time death for everyone to make that final choice in belief or not. As we all are given this freedom to choose from God himself in his risen Son. As man does not do this, at all, for man wants to be in charge, as I know me as I did and to this day am in a fight to not be in charge as was in a fight to be in charge. Now seeing I am not, and am not God to be in charge, there still remains a fight between flesh and the Spirit of God.

Galatians 4:28-29 Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)

28 Now we, brethren, as Isaac was, are the children of promise. 29 But as then he that was born after the flesh persecuted him that was born after the Spirit, even so it is now.

So this is at war even in our first born self’s wanting to be the leader, not the suppressed and also those that are suppressed, might want to see their freedom given them to be not led by mankind, as being the leaders of today. Nor even fight them either. Just see God does just love you and the entire world as said in 1 John 2:1-2, and verse 12, all those verses in between are telling me, by belief I will just do it, in love to all as is given us all by God Father through God Son for us to be one in them as won for us to just be new, and learn to let go of that emotional stuff that gets the best of us in arguing over stuff

Thank you to Father for revealing this to all, he knows best to reveal it to.


Homwardbound I am




Thought has not been located in our minds, to this day has not been identified to where it comes from, how it gets in our minds. We have over years learned a lot about thought(s). We have discovered the Amygdala, This is at the back of our heads, between spine and head.

To me I see this Amygdala as a teeter-totter, which has been figured out  it does this by thought processes that are filtered through this Amygdala, unto onto our body responses. Therefore if I have bad thoughts, I am no good, I can not do anything right, I am cursed, I got to, I have to, I better do it right, attitudes.

Our Amygdala is not leveled out, it is either up or down or even going up and down, sending signals to our autonomic nervous systems, to be replied back to our bodies, either malfunctioned or malfunctioning, and causing physical problems, even deeper ones, that are already there in us.

Seeing Worry causing diseases we might already have or been diagnosed with to be worse.

How, where do I get this from?

Matthew 6 tells me about worry, asking this ?. will worry add any moment to your life?

I see it does not, as a matter of fact, it takes away the present moment I am presently in. And no worrying for me has not ever helped me move on to be safe and secure in it. Trusting God to see me through it all, whether it be bad or good as I might see it.

And Thought(s) are the ones that bring this on, when I listen to them wherever these come from, man not knowing from where, not being able to define it.

But God does and says as a man thinks in heart so is he. Proverbs 23:7 read 1-7 to keep in context.

Then if you see this too, as only God Father reveals this, from the view given me to see this, is, we as first born flesh and blood people from man and woman having sex, are in need of a new heart and Spirit.

Ezekiel 36:26 talks of this. A new heart and new Spirit I will give you.

So where does this new heart and spirit reside at to have new for us to walk new in anfd just love all, whether good or bad. Is that not what the Bible tells us? That God so loved us that he gave Son for us, John 3:16 read the whole chapter asking to be revealed truth over errors of this world we are in. Only loving those that love us, hating those that do not, care for us, or help us, that use us. Are out for themselves in survival.

Oh this has been even me, I have done this exact same, I see I am accountable.

Rom.2:1-4,verse 4 revealing to me God’s kindness meant for me to see in appreciation so deep I turn to his lead instead of my own or this world’s

To Love all, not just a few as man does so easily, after being here in this world of evil al;l around us, that is not from God at all. One might say what about being punished, does not God punish us?

Really, does God need to? Do we not do that to ourselves in like thinking we know, when we do not know all. If I steal, kill and destroy others in my life here on earth. Am I not doing this to myself, when I do that? God does not have to do this to us, we have done this to self, have we not.

Or do we not see accordingly, when Adam and Eve sinned, and God asked them about eating from that one and only tree he said not to or you will die if do eat from it. They blamed someone else in their deception they took on in eating from that tree of knowledge.

Adam said it was the wife, Eve he gave her, Eve dais it was the serpent, and man has been doing this same thing ever since, Blaming others, using others as excuses for their failures.

See please we all are first born of flesh and blood that can not please Father, being born of man and woman first.

Only one person to this day ever came to this earth in flesh, was, is Christ, the messiah, Emmanuel (God with us) that ever was, is perfect!.

Not born of man and woman, Born of Woman, not man, Woman, The Spirit of God that formed this earth in the beginning and made man, caused Mary from the tribe of Judah, in the genealogy of King David to be pregnant with Child, no man Father.

So by his death, burial, resurrection, ascension, delivery of the Holy Spirit, Father himself in Spirit and Truth for us to walk new in, once anyone decides to believe and stand in it, not quitting even in and through adversities, stand in trust to Father’s words given us by Son that is risen as proof for new life given us free of charge ever. as seen on Pentecost

So Christ our Lord unto his Lord, Father now in belief he is risen for us to be new, Father is now ours too.

John 14:23

Start in belief to God, God just loves you, start right there in belief to see, as it takes a while to hear truth over error, being in this world of evil all around us and first born in  us at first birth under the similitude of Adam and Eve.

God knows who do this and who does not, which in truth is all that matters whether anyone claims to know or not.

I do not know, yet I am sure God knows all, and is the one and only one good. Even as Jesus said this being a human at that time in Matthew 19, he stated only my Father is good.

And in his resurrected life now, when believe Father seals you in belief to see he is now your Father too.









I am a failure

Even unto this day after belief on that first day at age 12, I have sinned over and over again, wanted my way or the highway, acted as if I am right, and to me I was every time until I saw I am not, I plain and simply just need God’s lead, not his help as is taught in religion.

Why not his help? Can you 100% walk new, have you ever since that first day in belief to his love for thee, mercy coupled in that? I haven’t I admit I would love to, and maybe you reading this too. I see “I can’t yet but want to.

So if “I give up trying to do what I now see I can’t do, will I or you or you, do it 100% new?

If “I” did or anyone else does, then tell me, Do I then still need God or you, or you reading this too?

Does this mean one sins all the more since Grace remains even if one does sin again? God Forbid, maybe if I, you or another does take this for granted, maybe one does not understand what this kindness to us all through Son is meant to do.

Now I remember a time a while back, I stole Mom’s credit card, and use it to go and drink and carouse, having my own personal justifiable reasons for doing this.

I came to the end of this, Guilty I was, and so I returned home to Confess my doing this. I confessed and expected to go to Jail. Mom saw my repentance, and so forgave me. I know I do not, did not deserve this forgiveness.

So when got this given free of charge, This is when I saw God’s love to us all. Even Saul who repented after killing others in belief to Jesus as risen where new life is given.

So that is what I got from Mom, God’s true loving character, which began changes in my life, seeing to not get what I deserved to get, and was ready to go through it.

I had no purpose top escape punishment. That is what God has done for us, in Son as Risen for us to get this new life offered us. To love all, God first, above all, then others as we are first loved from God of in Risen Son for us all to turn to in belief and not quit even in and through all adversities we go through. Now today if I do as asked to do from Father of in Risen Son, do I need to be credited for it.

If I think so, then maybe I do not understand this grace given me. Doing better than did before, should I be rewarded more.

How can that be when God has given eternal life. Is there anything better than that to have been given this to depend on in God’s promise?

I need him period every day, every way, always leading not me trying to get help, then when I do that, then it the “I” in the way again tripping me up in pride over stuff I don’t do any more.

I never know how God will get me through anything, I do know God will. As I go through adversities in front of me, I see doubt (enemy arrows) trying to flood my mind, so then I see I can’t mind, for my mind is being bombed with doubt(s) When God said it is finished for us to get and have new life, by turning to him in Son that is risen to lead us new, not help to get it there, just is what is done is done for us to get new life in Spirit and Truth with the new Heart promised us al to be able to get as in Ezekiel 36:26 states this truth.

That is done in risen Son where new life is at, given to us from Father, to stand in as this world of evil tries to keep us from seeing this truth

Thank you deeply as I pray Eph 3:16-19 for us all to see, as I know God is there to take any orphan in as one with him, by belief he does just love us all, otherwise, Son the Christ would not have done what he did for us all at the cross, where he took on all sin to himself for Father to be 100% satisfied forever.

So Father raised Son from the dead, to never die again. And has come here to earth in Spirit and Truth, The Holy Spirit to live in us that believe and teach us truth over errors of this world still happening ever since the Firat Adam failed in unbelief and ate from that tree.

Today we get to eat from that tree of life, Jesus Christ the risen one where new life promised us to have is at.


Homwardbound I am